This is a blog for my weight loss journey that I am making solely with the intention of keeping track of my progress. I'm not really looking to "inspire" anyone, or even with the hopes that anyone will stumble upon this blog. In fact, I hope no one comes across this monstrosity. Trust me, I am the last person to look up to, in any way, shape, or form, especially when it comes to weight loss. Currently I weigh in at just over 130 lbs, and am 5'5". I used to weigh just over 150 lbs in the not-so-distant past, and I honestly couldn't tell you how I managed to lose the 20lbs (probably from stress). I didn't change my eating habits, that's fo damn sholl! I still gorged myself on McDonald's french fries, chinese take-out, Golden Corral, and Arby's Beef n' Cheddars. I'll let you decide if that was all in one day (...jeez, I'm not THAT much of an animal...though the fact that I eat at Golden Corral lets you know I make poor life choices). Not gonna lie though, I brought TWO different lunches to work today just in case I decided I wanted one lunch more than the other, I'd have a choice and could leave the other in the fridge for the next day (yea right...I was totally going to eat both. It's an hour til I get off and I'm still debating on whether or not I want to pop my greasy ass leftover Olive Garden shrimp pasta in the microwave). But my coworker is just across the hall from me, and we have large glass windows in our offices, almost like we are on display...kind of like animals in the zoo.I don't want to deal with the paranoia of thinking he's over there silently judging me, because I know he saw me eat my "first lunch" earlier. Not only that, but I ran into him afterwards down in the cafeteria to get my shameful ass a Pepsi and a KitKat bar. Meanwhile, I had a 1 liter water jug on my desk still full of water that I silently pumped myself up about when I saw it at Walmart..it went a little something like this: "Oh how cute! A 1-liter water-jug! That'd be perfect and much easier to manage than the freaking gallon jug my husband bought me. I could easily down at least 2 liters a day!" haha Already off to a great start...my jug is currently sitting behind me on my other desk -out of sight, out of mind - and I may/may not have only taken a few sips out of it. And when I say a few, I mean like two sips.
I call this a weight-loss journey, but it's not so much about losing the weight as it is with just being happy with what I see in the mirror. Honestly, I am OK with the size that I am right now. Sure, I could lose a couple of pounds in my stomach area, but other than that, I embrace what curves I have. I mean, my butt is all I have going for me to be honest (I have mosquito-bite boobies, OK?!) Anyway, I'm going to be 25 in just a couple short weeks, and I figure it's now or never. I have never been completely happy with my body and I figure it's about time to stop bitching about it and actually do something about it. If I wanted to be inspirational, I'd say "Love yourself and the body you're in, no matter what size you are", but honestly, that's the biggest load of crap I've ever heard. There's at least one thing about our bodies that we aren't happy with. You can't tell me there is actually a person out there that has no qualms with their appearance. I don't care if you appear genetically blessed/perfect, even those people are insecure about something (and are being totally irrational and annoying because, come one, they're genetic gods/goddesses...like goddamn, Ashley and Brian, leave some beauty dust for the rest of us unfortuante peasants. Fuck off with your perfect white teeth, clear skin complexion, toned body, "on fleek" *cringe* eyebrows...nobody cares if you are depressed about your ONE pimple, or how your six pack abs aren't as chiseled as you'd like...people like me are sitting over here looking like a fucking potato with no hope). We're all human. And as long as I have the ability to better myself or change the skin I'm in, I'm going to do it. That's my perrogative, dammit. But maybe I'll start tomorrow. Being a failure is exhausting :P
For the next 30 days, I will be doing workout routines from Darebee.com's Athena Playbook. My husband is actually the one who found this program for me. He knows if he left it up to me to find a workout routine, I'd never find one :P I like this one because it has a little bit of everything, though it mainly focuses on the lower body, which for me, fits my purposes. If you haven't checked out Darebee.com, I highly recommend it. If you're like me, you get really overwhelmed with trying to put together a workout routine/schedule on your own. Darebee has literally hundreds of different workouts to choose from, and several workout programs to follow, as well as daily challenges. If you're interested in building a better diet to go with your workout, they also have meal plans, recipes, and nutritional info on their site. Here is a link to the program I will be doing: Athena's Playbook Below are examples of some of the workouts from the program (just click o...
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